Candle in a Hurricane

The lyrics to this song were on my Christmas letter last year..as I was fighting the battle with mom to get well..ironically here I am a year later..and nothing has changed...At what point do you let it go, and accept defeat, tell yourself you fought a good fight...

Mom's Dr visit today...pretty much patted my mother on the head and that was it....no standing up to her, telling her to quit smoking, (11 cigarettes a hour when home) did not tell her she needs to eat 3 meals a day, (we are now down to barely one) ...this was my last hope, as last year at this time, she had a very similar Doctor appt...month later after Bending until I nearly broke, she went into the hospital (3rd time in year) and I was told I did good, as one more day and she would have been dead...

I said to this Doctor in June 07, that I did not get a chance to fight for Dad, and I was going to do my damnedest to fight for mother...I think I fought a good fight...time to surrender...No more fight left in me, especially when she does not want to join the fight...But how do watch your 60 year old mother let herself go.. Thanks for listening...Catch you later