7 Years Ago Today

My life changed forever...My 54 year old Dad died of a massive Heart attack..so many things were different back then....I remember (and kinda still am) being in such shock as due to the September 11th attacks, the very subject of death came up with dad just a few nights before he died...he told me (I was worried and again still am about mom's health) that "there is nothing you can do when God calls its your time" so many unanswered questions...Hindsight is 20/20..looking at the pictures from my lil sisters graduation earlier that year...I could see he wasn't well..but being in a house with 3 daughters and a wife..he never complained...now not to say he was perfect..but you know what these last 7 years without him, I have come to realize he fought a good fight against some heavy burdens he carried...His last words to me ...Good Night love you babe ...

Speaking of pictures...my lil sister was ticked off that all of our family pictures where taken before she was born, so late that summer she insisted we have some taken..(there was the whisper of God) Thanks little sister for being ticked (for once I am so happy you were) Dad never saw them..we got them back for the services...






Now the below song I heard before dad died, after I always thought the lyrics were so appropriate..fishing ...eyes..etc..ironically until this past weekend I never saw the video for it ..another ironic thing is at the end of the video the girl is holding a baby, don't see that in my future...but so many other things(good and bad) have changed...Marriages, Births, Deaths, illnesses...new jobs.. I guess this part of the song says it best...

My life has changed since you went away
And I need to know if I'm doing O.K.
I've done all I can to make you proud
Daddy can you see me now?



Thanks for letting me "cry" on your shoulders today...Love you and miss you Dad